every once and awhile i like to take a look back at where i found myself this time last year. having this blog, makes it especially easy. some days my life feels full of drama and i am just longing for simple, more calm days. i know thats probably not feasible given all that is going on. but when i look at this time last year, i realize the boys were just learning to hold their heads up and we were just preparing for the vacation from hell. it seems crazy given that they are walking and running everywhere these days. f. was just taking his first bus ride last year, and now he seems like an old pro at it. i dont really know how we got here from there.
i have been feeling disjointed somehow lately. these last two weeks i have been ignoring the banging at my door, i refuse to let him in - that ugly ugly monster, known as depression. i keep chalking it up to things like my cycle or the fact that my identity was ripped off. enough already - leave me alone. no one is home! i know i am going to have to face it head on sooner or later and really do something about it. for now though i just find myself saying "la, la, la, i cant hear you - cant you see the no soliciting sign" as if that is going to make a difference.
its girl weekend this saturday - we are going to the beach - the perfect place to stick my head in the sand - no?!
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